unbelieveable.

i don't know why i'm still thinking about it, you know. surely i should have gotten over it by now. but i can't believe it took something like the other week for you to realise the effect that would have on me? you kept saying how you knew and that's why you felt so guilty - if you knew, and you blame yourself so much now, why did you do it? maybe not the first time, but the second, third, fourth maybe? i don't know how often you done it.
this isn't here because i blame you. actually i'd be thankful if you didn't read it because penny to a pound you wont be happy with me, despite the fact i haven't mentioned your name or said what it's about.

but if you feel so guilty now, why didn't you feel guilty then?

i don't want you to feel guilty, i've told you, i love you, you mean everything to me and i don't hold this against you. i just cannot believe you didn't know until now how much it got to me :/